I had a chat with my mom last night to see how she was holding up (she’s a mess). Apparently Grandpa Aubrey is not doing well at all. His brain is very weak, and he has meningitis. They think it got in through the drain. He is on enough drugs to cut steel, so says my mom. I’m not sure what to do or say with any of this. There is a real chance that he won’t pull through. There is a real chance he will pull through. They’re making something of a decision on Wednesday.
I slept poorly last night because I couldn’t stop thinking about this, and I couldn’t stop thinking about all the work I have to do and how it never seems to end. I’m really really really scared that I’m losing my Grandfather. It’s an awful feeling and I’m not sure how I’m taking it. My mind is all in a knot at the moment and I’m hoping things stay knotted up until Wednesday at some point. I have to get this paper in and I can’t have this awful thing bearing down on me making me distracted.
Here’s hoping things look up in the next few days so I can get through them.
I really think this is the worst year to be at school for me. All these awful things keep happening. I’m just very lucky to have Grant with me. He’s the one of the good things that has happened this year. And he gives wonderful hugs. It’s been a gruelling training process, but the hugs are now superb 😛