I’ve done something good, I’ve done something I’m still coming to terms with, and I have a helluva lot to get writing on.
I inadvertently helped a fellow student get credit for being present on our Trees field trip by crossing off someone’s name who was not on it. I don’t care who finds out it was me. BRING IT. I am not going to put up with these middle school/high school antics of writing down people’s names when they are not present. They need to fend for themselves and act on their own. You’re not there, email the professor asking what you can do to make up for it. Apologise for your lack of attendance.
The coming to terms:
I was in a rather sour mood Thursday night so I sent off an email to two friends who I have felt rather ignored by. There have been many promises of “I’ll come visit” and “I’ll write you an email tonight.” There have also been apologies of “Sorry I didn’t write you.” I’ve been here for almost 6 months. Just write a 5 minute email saying how life is. I rather blew up and got very interesting replies. The first friend replied with a very defensive response in how she’s acted, the other friend replied with a huge apology and explanation of how it made her feel to read my email. I am still mixed about these replies.
I understand having friends keep in touch with you can be very difficult. I have some friends that have sunk back into the “I’ll see you when I see you” and those that I write letters to back and forth, chat with on AIM, and generally keep in somewhat-touch with. I am not comfortable with the shift happening while I am away from home. I have known these friends for most of my life (at least 20 years) and to feel them slipping into the background is very hard for me to grasp. I am unsure if that is how things will be or if it is an unaware of what is going on. I can also rant about this for days, so I’m stopping.
The school work:
I have an essay on some tree topic that I still need to start due Wednesday, my Limestone Pavement Case Study due by noon on Thursday, Conservation Biology short answers due Friday as well as a 1200-1500 word essay on our field trip to Houghall College AND to see if I need to help out any more with our Powerpoint Presentation on beech trees.
My life has hit a wall of hell.
Back to writing about Limestone Pavement I go. The stress is actually making me almost feel sick. Bad. . bad. . bad. . BAD.